Monday, March 28, 2005

My NeoWorld

So...........new job(s), new place, new life? I sure will miss my family. I'll be busy as hell. I'll have an actual social life again. I won't have the self-indulgence of having my coffee made for me every morning and someone to do my grocery shopping for me. I'll have to start spending money to live again. But I am an Aries, change is good. Change is always good.

Thursday, March 17, 2005

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Perhaps you think I'm demented, perhaps you think I have psychological problems, perhaps you think I'm depressed. Well, I haven't been depressed in the last 8 months. Sad sometimes, but not depressed. Normal people get sad sometimes. I am not an idealistic person living in a fantasy where everything I dream comes true. I have placed hope on so many things. I can't hang my hat up without running into some past regret. But I get up, I go on, I treasure ppl and moments, I wish for a future, I live in the past sometimes, I long for a fulfillment that sneaks up occasionally. I feel fully, I will never fade into a nothingness personality, dried and used up by ambition and anger. You are SO optimistic about your life and your talent. It is good for you but how will you ever support the less fortunate in your life? If we cannot support one another at low points then what are we good for? What makes a friend? I live, I love, I lose, I win, I fail, I succeed, I laugh, I Learn, and I hope. I also sometimes give up. It is sometimes easier to fail without trying, less disappointing seemingly. I will continue, things will always be the same (somewhat), it is my way

Tuesday, March 15, 2005

There is no such thing as love.
There are only two things:
1)the fear of being alone
2)the security of knowing you're not