About a Boy

For as long as I can remember I've always been attracted to a certain type of guy. Short, medium-build, straight, dark hair is my ideal. Through the years I've dated many different types of guys but the vague outline of my ideal tends to frequent my dating scene. In essence I date boys. My boyfriends may be men agewise but they remind me of boys in stature, etc. In an Adolescent Psychology class I learned that most women prefer taller men because it gives them a sense of security. I always assume I prefer the more stunted of the stock because I want someone on my level. I want an equal, not a protector. I want to share my life, not grant someone ownership of it. If I ever get married I never want to agree to obey my husband, I will never speak through him in lieu of speaking for myself. I want to love and protect him equally as much as he does for me. I want everything fair. Perhaps it may prove too idealistic but it's what I want.

And there's nothing more beautiful than a boy's face during emotional moments, intimate moments, and everyday life.

Thanksgiving Football

Today I did something I haven't done since high school. I played football. Okay, we played with a football. Me and young male cousins threw a football back and forth and went fishing together. My youngest cousin caught ten small fish. One was striped blue and the stripes looked like black light colors, ultraviolet light. I played with the bait (worms) and watched the life in my hands go from short and fat to long and thin. It was beautiful to watch and to be in control.
Happy, happy turkey day.

You can't take it back when you don't get the reaction you want.

"Women, the embodiment of sexuality, were in fact responsible for the downfall of mankind in the Garden of Eden"
"Yes, and we've been second-class citizens ever since...Why can't we be vicars or priests? Because we're too deafened by the din of our bodies to hear God's word."
---"Sirens"

Things to do with my life

Career options:
1) write a book
-of poetry
-of opinion on
-women
-the blue-collar worker (the common man)
-family and religious influences
2) write a newspaper column
-restaurant critic
-movie critic
3) write a movie screenplay or television show
4) work in an advertising agency as
-copywriter
-advertising art director
5) open my own business
-restaurant
-book store
6) become a chef
-write a cookbook
-design a cookbook
-edit a cookbook
7) write/own a magazine for women of today
8) start a women's organization

Okay, this is a good start for now.

If you're always worried about tomorrow it's because you're too scared to deal with today.