Answer to the Meaning of Life

No matter who you ask, different people will always give you different answers. People choose what their lives mean. Some people choose for their main focus to be their career, their relationship, their religion, etc.
I personally have always wanted to make my life mean something great. But I've focused so hard on my life meaning something to someone that I've compromised myself on countless occasions, forgiven things that should not have been forgiven, and held on to people, jobs, ideas, etc. that I should not have held on to.
No matter what happens in my life I will always be alone in my decisions, my feelings, and my values. It's nice to surround myself with people that share some of these things with me. However, I will always be different from the next person. I will always be alone. I can live with someone, I can die next to someone. No one will ever truly share my pain, my joy, my experiences. My life's meaning is only definable by me and only truly matters to me

Silver and gold

Yesterday I bought some work clothes, a couple of books, and a "brand new" t-shirt. I spent the day mostly alone and ended with dinner at applebee's while I read my "How girls can take over the world" book. It was enjoyable over all. It's so hard not to blow money on every little thing, especially when I go to places like Pier 1, where I really shouldn't spend money considering a) I live at home and b) when I leave Louisiana I want to take very little with me (very little meaning all my clothes, books, and as much kitchen stuff as my car can take). It's hard not to spend money. I'm looking forward to Christmas and winter (as if that's possible) a lot this year. I think a large part of that reason is because I'm home with my family for once and because I'm not dreading finals. I do really miss school though. I feel like I'm getting stupider every day. Maybe I could be like my uncle and just stay in school forever. How do ppl choose their occupations? Just fall into them when they fail at what they want?

God, I need to do something in my field, just anything that takes some brain power, argh.
I bought a book on the GRE yesterday.

Entry 1: who I be

Hello all, I'm an ultra groovy short chick who lives in Louisiana and has a lot going on in her life. This is my second online "diary" and I look forward to allowing anyone who wants to "to live vicariously through me".

My outlook on life: It varies... Right now I can't think of any real good reasons to be anything but happy. I've got great people in my life, I've got a great family, and I have a lot of hope for my future. Right now the main thing I'm missing is a better job. I'm a recent graduate in the field of mass communications-advertising. I hope to eventually make my way across the U.S. to some place like Chicago where the agencies run rampant and I can get paid for being the advertising whore I already am.

Well, there's my first entry, welcome to my life.